I am a pleb.
The sentence that should be used by a person who has just ruined all things good in their Life.
You know that moment, when you say you love someone and mean it. That finally happened to me, I really had met my 'crowning glory'! She is perfection personified. Yet, in the essence of my love, I tripped, and made the greatest mistake of my life. I cheated on her.
Why? I don't know. I could blame it on the Alcohol I had drank, but that is cowardly, the actions I make, are the mistakes I live with for the rest of my life. I have never felt like this, defeated, hurt, angry, and it all being towards myself. No one else. Me!
I have never been this sorry.
Saturday, 29 September 2012
Maturity
The error of my ways will be destroyed as the future turns to present and present drifts into the eternal past. What changes is not me, but time. I drift into a different era of my life, but my ways are the same; as a teenager I can't help but notice the lie that is maturity. They say as I get older I will become wiser, clarity will shine through a water drop of life. But as I move from the October of my Teen years, I notice that I matured very little, the consequences of that are the mistakes I have made.
Maturity doesn't leave you with clarity of thought, but with a foggier glass then before, you learn to perceive things as half full or half empty, finished or incomplete, the story is always the same, and yet you find yourself asking more and more questions. Why? You get no answer. No response. Not even a thought will truly answer your questions.
I am sorry for the mistakes I make, my maturity being the truth of my naivety. The Silence I will sit in, when I realise I am wrong. To you I am sorry!
Maturity doesn't leave you with clarity of thought, but with a foggier glass then before, you learn to perceive things as half full or half empty, finished or incomplete, the story is always the same, and yet you find yourself asking more and more questions. Why? You get no answer. No response. Not even a thought will truly answer your questions.
I am sorry for the mistakes I make, my maturity being the truth of my naivety. The Silence I will sit in, when I realise I am wrong. To you I am sorry!
Monday, 27 August 2012
"I'm gonna show you how great I am!"
In the words of Muhammad Ali "Imma show you how great I am!"
Some people believe that vanity is a sin, I think 'Yeah. Sure, it is a sin, if it is abused and not in small amounts." For example, there is nothing like self belief. That thought you might actually be worth something in this world, rather than a tiny spec in the galaxy, or greater yet the universe.
See everyone wants to feel like they have a purpose, whether it is too lead, whether it is to follow, to help, fight, or even love. I believe I am great, or I have the potential to be. To show people that behind there small corner of society, there is a bigger world out there, it won't swallow you up, it wants you to come out, experience it, love it, live it. The world entices you to be great, to go out there and make a difference, Muhammad Ali saw that, Martin Luther King saw that, Winston Churchill saw and appreciated those who did it, JFK fought for those who wanted to do it and died trying, the point I am making, is people try and limit your greatness.
As a teenager, you feel like the outcast of society, but the truth is, the older generations fear us. They fear the potential, the power, the new generations capability to mold to the creases of society, to expand on what once stood and innovate it. The teenage populous fears nothing but themselves, some people believe it to be our arrogance, I see it as our power over them. We see things differently, no matter what our predicaments. The self belief in our hearts that shouts in our subconscious "You can do it!" this is true power.
Why let people fear your potential, let it shine, and show them you are what they need, you are that beacon of light at the end of the tunnel. Show the world how great you are!
Some people believe that vanity is a sin, I think 'Yeah. Sure, it is a sin, if it is abused and not in small amounts." For example, there is nothing like self belief. That thought you might actually be worth something in this world, rather than a tiny spec in the galaxy, or greater yet the universe.
See everyone wants to feel like they have a purpose, whether it is too lead, whether it is to follow, to help, fight, or even love. I believe I am great, or I have the potential to be. To show people that behind there small corner of society, there is a bigger world out there, it won't swallow you up, it wants you to come out, experience it, love it, live it. The world entices you to be great, to go out there and make a difference, Muhammad Ali saw that, Martin Luther King saw that, Winston Churchill saw and appreciated those who did it, JFK fought for those who wanted to do it and died trying, the point I am making, is people try and limit your greatness.
As a teenager, you feel like the outcast of society, but the truth is, the older generations fear us. They fear the potential, the power, the new generations capability to mold to the creases of society, to expand on what once stood and innovate it. The teenage populous fears nothing but themselves, some people believe it to be our arrogance, I see it as our power over them. We see things differently, no matter what our predicaments. The self belief in our hearts that shouts in our subconscious "You can do it!" this is true power.
Why let people fear your potential, let it shine, and show them you are what they need, you are that beacon of light at the end of the tunnel. Show the world how great you are!
Thursday, 23 August 2012
Technology
Sorry to those who read my blog, I haven't been able to blog recently due to my laptop overheating and melting the keyboard.
So todays blog is about Technology. The way it has intertwined with our lives, and has made it near impossible to live without. With the likes of Facebook and twitter taking over our social lives the internet is one of the many things that people of the post-modern era have become entirely dependent upon.
I feel that technology has created a void, that many of today's society hide behind. Due to technology the stupid have become the intelligent, able to change the views of thousands whereas the intelligent have become hidden, not coming forth anymore due to the amount of opinionated consumers and producers that scale the web.
I think that we have become to reliant upon the internet, meaning that some of society have lost valuable communication skills, as they have not had to necessarily had to talk face to face with a person. Teenagers in particular have stopped going out, because it is easier to use the technology that creates synthetic realities for them to play in.
Admittedly I am being over critical about the use of technology, it has brought communities together, allowed them to communicate with each other quickly and efficiently just with the click of a mouse or the press of a button.
So todays blog is about Technology. The way it has intertwined with our lives, and has made it near impossible to live without. With the likes of Facebook and twitter taking over our social lives the internet is one of the many things that people of the post-modern era have become entirely dependent upon.
I feel that technology has created a void, that many of today's society hide behind. Due to technology the stupid have become the intelligent, able to change the views of thousands whereas the intelligent have become hidden, not coming forth anymore due to the amount of opinionated consumers and producers that scale the web.
I think that we have become to reliant upon the internet, meaning that some of society have lost valuable communication skills, as they have not had to necessarily had to talk face to face with a person. Teenagers in particular have stopped going out, because it is easier to use the technology that creates synthetic realities for them to play in.
Admittedly I am being over critical about the use of technology, it has brought communities together, allowed them to communicate with each other quickly and efficiently just with the click of a mouse or the press of a button.
Friday, 3 August 2012
A difficult decision
Readers
I am faced with a decision, that essentially I have to make for myself, but could really do with some help on it. You see, my passion is in the field of drama, however, I have found a love for my writing, the way I get to express opinions, ideals and other entities with you. The decision comes down to what I will apply for during this year of my University application. I am currently taking Business Studies, History, English Literature and Media Studies for my AS levels, and well, as much as I want to go out into the world as an Actor, I have started to find that writing is quickly becoming an exclusive passion that I enjoy sharing, not only with friends and families, but also the internet. This is where the decision comes, do I decide to try and become that 15 Oscar award winning actor, or do I become that extremely successful and accomplished writer? Better yet, after falling in love with the program Newsroom, I am also considering the possibility of becoming a journalist.
As a teenager, we are faced with decisions, that ultimately change our life forever. Our teachers say now "the choices we make, will stay with us for the rest of our lives!" which makes the whole process even harder, how to you decide between a passion that you have had all your life, to a talent that has come rushing between your legs, in the past year, or even choosing to let the people hear what is needed to be said. I want to be good enough at drama to get into LAMDA or RADA, both of which are incredibly difficult to get into, and were the starting point to a number of famous actors and actresses.
Or do I go to a normal University, take up writing, possibly creative, or study journalism and set my sights on moving to the USA and becoming an Anchorman across seas?
If any of my readers actually read this one, I could do with a strong opinion on what I should do, tweet me on @prowseysweet, Email me proswey901@gmail.com or just leave a comment in the comment section below!
I am faced with a decision, that essentially I have to make for myself, but could really do with some help on it. You see, my passion is in the field of drama, however, I have found a love for my writing, the way I get to express opinions, ideals and other entities with you. The decision comes down to what I will apply for during this year of my University application. I am currently taking Business Studies, History, English Literature and Media Studies for my AS levels, and well, as much as I want to go out into the world as an Actor, I have started to find that writing is quickly becoming an exclusive passion that I enjoy sharing, not only with friends and families, but also the internet. This is where the decision comes, do I decide to try and become that 15 Oscar award winning actor, or do I become that extremely successful and accomplished writer? Better yet, after falling in love with the program Newsroom, I am also considering the possibility of becoming a journalist.
As a teenager, we are faced with decisions, that ultimately change our life forever. Our teachers say now "the choices we make, will stay with us for the rest of our lives!" which makes the whole process even harder, how to you decide between a passion that you have had all your life, to a talent that has come rushing between your legs, in the past year, or even choosing to let the people hear what is needed to be said. I want to be good enough at drama to get into LAMDA or RADA, both of which are incredibly difficult to get into, and were the starting point to a number of famous actors and actresses.
Or do I go to a normal University, take up writing, possibly creative, or study journalism and set my sights on moving to the USA and becoming an Anchorman across seas?
If any of my readers actually read this one, I could do with a strong opinion on what I should do, tweet me on @prowseysweet, Email me proswey901@gmail.com or just leave a comment in the comment section below!
Tuesday, 31 July 2012
Live Laugh Love
"Live, Laugh, Love" the order in which we fall in love. The paths we will take to true love, eternal peace, and finally family. Roads that we choose make our decisions a lot clearer, but we have to live on those roads, walk along them, until the next stop sign appears and asks you that next question.
A lot of us, go on a gap year, that soul searching adventure, that should help us understand our own lives. Before we can truly see the funny side to life, we must explore it, find it, hold it. As a teenager, we often try to do this in the reverse order, find love, laugh about it, then live in it, but how do you know what love is until you have seen it on the faces of those who have lived, laughed and finally fallen in love?
Sometimes, I think we have actually lost sight of life, taken it for granted, stop actually living and started drifting hoping that we might bump into the other things on the way. Some of us get lucky, some of us do drift into the things that we are searching for, but that doesn't mean we should stop living, surely we should strive to make it last, make it greater.
So this year remember to live first!
A lot of us, go on a gap year, that soul searching adventure, that should help us understand our own lives. Before we can truly see the funny side to life, we must explore it, find it, hold it. As a teenager, we often try to do this in the reverse order, find love, laugh about it, then live in it, but how do you know what love is until you have seen it on the faces of those who have lived, laughed and finally fallen in love?
Sometimes, I think we have actually lost sight of life, taken it for granted, stop actually living and started drifting hoping that we might bump into the other things on the way. Some of us get lucky, some of us do drift into the things that we are searching for, but that doesn't mean we should stop living, surely we should strive to make it last, make it greater.
So this year remember to live first!
Thursday, 26 July 2012
Regret
In every bodies life there is a moment of regret. Movies have notoriously said that we should "Live without regret" or have inferred to that quote in some way.
It is hard as a teenager, to know how to deal with regret, whether or not to ignore it, embrace it, move away from it. In all seriousness I think it is important to do all three of those things. It will take you on that journey that will help you find yourself, with out regret it will mean we won't have made a mistake, but after all I have lived through I know that is not Humanly possible.
Our mistakes will teach us by using regret as a driver, what the difference is between right and wrong, good and evil, our moral backgrounds and foregrounds, molds the future we wish to bring to life as we grow up. A lot of the time a teenager, like myself, will regret a lot of their mistakes, for example my first time (Yes, that's right I am not a virgin) definitely wasn't ready for it, and still debating whether I am currently ready for it.
Sometimes regretting something can make you think twice about how you go about it the next time, whether it will be giving your friend that needed bit of truth, or protecting someone you love. Regret shapes our past, present and future.
Saturday, 21 July 2012
Issues
I was kindly pointed out by one of my readers that I hadn't posted in a while, so this is to try and redeem that.
Issues. There seems to be an overload of them, and there is no cure for the issue, it doesn't matter as soon as you defeat one, another will step up like a petulant child taking his/her place among a gang. I fear things, I fear many things to be honest. As a teenager, I seem to make an issue out of everything, how my life is apparently unfair, how I don't get to do the things I want too, but when you watch the news, I start to notice probably like you, that I don't have it that bad... does anyone? That answer would be yes. People who live in extreme poverty, people who lose a limb, a person who lost family members to a tragic accident. But every now and again you see them spark up a moment of inspiration, for example those who will be competing in the Paralympics.
An issue that has always fascinated me, is the devastation of the 9/11 attacks in New York on the World Trade Center. It took thousands of lives, sparked a military excursion (often seen to be the beginning of World War III) Most people if that happened to them would have seen a problem, a defeat, and done nothing about it, stood and watched, but the truth is, it is our human nature that causes us to do these random acts of kindness in times of desperation. They get up when the fight is almost over, and take the fight back to the opponent when it looks like we are ready to lose. Issues are what bring people together, the way a nation can be shaped is by the people who stand up and say that this issue is merely another hurdle in our race for life! Winston Churchill used a quote from Henry V (Shakespeare) "We few, We happy few, We band of brothers!" this quote shaped the way we fought in the Second World War, and still to this day shapes our decisions. An issue unites us.
However, their are issues that destroy the faith, that cancel out the willingness to carry on, the issues that cause fear to grow and continue to frighten those who are fickle and will believe everything you tell them. Unfortunately, as a teenager, we have been united, we have been seen as a cancerous spot in society, yet we as a group make up the new ideologies that will shape our country for years to come. And yet, we are still mediated as the terrors of society, the term 'hoodies' are associated with our existence. We have been anchored in such a way that, it won't matter what we do, the ages of 15-18 are known to more than half of society as the dreadful age, the age of rebellion. How do we unite against people who want to believe that we are all the same, we are individuals and that in itself should be a bigger issue to the news, that teenagers, will consistently find it difficult to get a job, have a life, without being constantly begrudged by our makers.
Maybe I am wrong, but this is how I feel, if you have your opinions and you want to share them either comment on this page, tweet me @prowseysweet or email me prowsey901@gmail.com
Issues. There seems to be an overload of them, and there is no cure for the issue, it doesn't matter as soon as you defeat one, another will step up like a petulant child taking his/her place among a gang. I fear things, I fear many things to be honest. As a teenager, I seem to make an issue out of everything, how my life is apparently unfair, how I don't get to do the things I want too, but when you watch the news, I start to notice probably like you, that I don't have it that bad... does anyone? That answer would be yes. People who live in extreme poverty, people who lose a limb, a person who lost family members to a tragic accident. But every now and again you see them spark up a moment of inspiration, for example those who will be competing in the Paralympics.
An issue that has always fascinated me, is the devastation of the 9/11 attacks in New York on the World Trade Center. It took thousands of lives, sparked a military excursion (often seen to be the beginning of World War III) Most people if that happened to them would have seen a problem, a defeat, and done nothing about it, stood and watched, but the truth is, it is our human nature that causes us to do these random acts of kindness in times of desperation. They get up when the fight is almost over, and take the fight back to the opponent when it looks like we are ready to lose. Issues are what bring people together, the way a nation can be shaped is by the people who stand up and say that this issue is merely another hurdle in our race for life! Winston Churchill used a quote from Henry V (Shakespeare) "We few, We happy few, We band of brothers!" this quote shaped the way we fought in the Second World War, and still to this day shapes our decisions. An issue unites us.
However, their are issues that destroy the faith, that cancel out the willingness to carry on, the issues that cause fear to grow and continue to frighten those who are fickle and will believe everything you tell them. Unfortunately, as a teenager, we have been united, we have been seen as a cancerous spot in society, yet we as a group make up the new ideologies that will shape our country for years to come. And yet, we are still mediated as the terrors of society, the term 'hoodies' are associated with our existence. We have been anchored in such a way that, it won't matter what we do, the ages of 15-18 are known to more than half of society as the dreadful age, the age of rebellion. How do we unite against people who want to believe that we are all the same, we are individuals and that in itself should be a bigger issue to the news, that teenagers, will consistently find it difficult to get a job, have a life, without being constantly begrudged by our makers.
Maybe I am wrong, but this is how I feel, if you have your opinions and you want to share them either comment on this page, tweet me @prowseysweet or email me prowsey901@gmail.com
Tuesday, 17 July 2012
20 seconds of courage
Have you ever felt like you don't want to try and see what is around the corner? I know I have.
I just watched the film 'We bought a zoo' and one of the big things were there is a moment of choice, in that choice you can choose to have 20 seconds of courage. To me, I thought it brought a new understanding to things, that sort of well it is worth a shot, "why not?"
I liked the thought that if you just give yourself 20 seconds, you could surprise yourself, in that 20 seconds you could find yourself looking at the girl you have loved forever, it all comes down to whether you fear the response. I would say if the response isn't what you are hoping for that is the way it is meant to be.
Kind of a small post tonight, but it comes with a lot of meaning, I am gonna have to find that 20 seconds of courage the next time I see her!
I just watched the film 'We bought a zoo' and one of the big things were there is a moment of choice, in that choice you can choose to have 20 seconds of courage. To me, I thought it brought a new understanding to things, that sort of well it is worth a shot, "why not?"
I liked the thought that if you just give yourself 20 seconds, you could surprise yourself, in that 20 seconds you could find yourself looking at the girl you have loved forever, it all comes down to whether you fear the response. I would say if the response isn't what you are hoping for that is the way it is meant to be.
Kind of a small post tonight, but it comes with a lot of meaning, I am gonna have to find that 20 seconds of courage the next time I see her!
Relationships
Whether it is just a friendship, or it is romantic, relationships in our teenage lives will make us or break us. Doesn't matter how good you think you are at the relationship either. Some people take years to find what most people think they have, but there is no such thing as a perfect relationship.
As a teen we grow up looking into celebrity interests, relationships and somehow we still believe that their relationship is perfect. Have you not noticed the amount of divorce that celebrity couples undergo. We condition ourselves to try and generate a so called 'perfect relationship' when I can assure you all my Ex-Girlfriends will tell you that I was shit at them.
So stop kidding yourselves, the only way a relationship works is if you take the time and care to work on it, everyday, every week, right up to your dying breath, even if you are the only one trying at least you tried.
As a teen we grow up looking into celebrity interests, relationships and somehow we still believe that their relationship is perfect. Have you not noticed the amount of divorce that celebrity couples undergo. We condition ourselves to try and generate a so called 'perfect relationship' when I can assure you all my Ex-Girlfriends will tell you that I was shit at them.
So stop kidding yourselves, the only way a relationship works is if you take the time and care to work on it, everyday, every week, right up to your dying breath, even if you are the only one trying at least you tried.
Loss
So today's page is about loss, that feeling of defeat. As an athlete (in so many words) I have to deal with loss most of the time whilst playing in matches. But at the end of the day it is about how we deal with that loss, whether we are able to bounce back, or do we sit in the corner and cry ourselves to sleep. In most peoples cases, they let that loss over shadow their next opportunity. I know at times I have, you know, for example "We can't beat them, they win every year!" but each year is a new year, there are so many things that we could do with it, so many opportunities to win or lose, both on and off the sports field.
I dealt with a great deal of loss over the past three years, I had to learn to be able to bounce back no matter what happened. It takes time, it is hard as a teenager, to take on the stresses of your own life, but then also trying to be the foundation your family needs to stand on. You have to be that undefeatable, unquestionable rock that stands and takes the bullshit whilst everything else crumbles and destroys itself around you. At times I felt that I had become distant from what I wanted to do, I needed freedom, and that is what loss creates, a dissatisfaction of life, makes you feel useless, unneeded, unwanted, abandoned.
As a teenager, we find when we are home, we much rather be in our own company, chilling, relaxing, thinking that no one around us knows what we are going through, in a way no one does. Yet, if you just let the loss wash over you, and see the silver lining then you notice that loss is just the beginning to a rise.
Stop looking at things as if it is the end, because it is only beginning to something much better.
I dealt with a great deal of loss over the past three years, I had to learn to be able to bounce back no matter what happened. It takes time, it is hard as a teenager, to take on the stresses of your own life, but then also trying to be the foundation your family needs to stand on. You have to be that undefeatable, unquestionable rock that stands and takes the bullshit whilst everything else crumbles and destroys itself around you. At times I felt that I had become distant from what I wanted to do, I needed freedom, and that is what loss creates, a dissatisfaction of life, makes you feel useless, unneeded, unwanted, abandoned.
As a teenager, we find when we are home, we much rather be in our own company, chilling, relaxing, thinking that no one around us knows what we are going through, in a way no one does. Yet, if you just let the loss wash over you, and see the silver lining then you notice that loss is just the beginning to a rise.
Stop looking at things as if it is the end, because it is only beginning to something much better.
Monday, 16 July 2012
I just realised I hadn't wrote on my blog today. I think it is because I didn't know what to write about, but that could be to do with the amount of boredom this bad weather has brought with it.
I mean come on it is summer, mid-July and there has been more rain then sun, it is starting to feel like Autumn already.
Summer 2012 in the UK is meant to be the biggest event of this year, this is due to the Olympics in London, Batman's epic ending, and the supposed 'November' to the end of our conclusion (which by the way I don't actually believe in, I just think that the people who wrote the calender just didn't think that their people would make it to that date.) It has got me thinking though about what to do with myself, today, tomorrow, a month from now, a year from now, maybe even more. I would like to be going to University, possible even attending the mighty LAMDA to study drama as part of my dream, and rise to stardom. But in actual fact, looking beyond the near future and getting past my adolescence, it suddenly occurred to me that I don't know what I want.
A question we are constantly asked as teenagers, is what do you want to do with your life, and we always give them an answer, when in actual fact we don't actually know where we are going. Maybe I am wrong, tell me if I am.
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Sunday, 15 July 2012
Judgement
So this evening I decided to post this blog on my Facebook, somewhere where my friends can see it, at first I shouldn't be scared about my friends seeing it, over the public anyway. Yet, it got me thinking, about the word judgement, how it is no more than two syllables long, and yet everyone fears it.
Which is weird, right because these are your friends, you should trust them. Right? Wrong, unfortunately, it is your friends, that judge you the most, whether it is negative or positive, the fear teenagers have of this, is quintessentially damaging as we begin to stop trusting the people we love, and cherish. I needed some encouragement to post this on my Facebook, your challenge for the next few days is to not give in to the fear of judgement.
Tell me about your accomplishments on twitter @prowseysweet or email prowsey901@gmail.com
Which is weird, right because these are your friends, you should trust them. Right? Wrong, unfortunately, it is your friends, that judge you the most, whether it is negative or positive, the fear teenagers have of this, is quintessentially damaging as we begin to stop trusting the people we love, and cherish. I needed some encouragement to post this on my Facebook, your challenge for the next few days is to not give in to the fear of judgement.
Tell me about your accomplishments on twitter @prowseysweet or email prowsey901@gmail.com
Musical insterests
It has suddenly dawned on me the influence my brother had on my musical interests. When I was younger, around the ages of 12 -14 my favourite genre of music was anything that was in the Top 40 UK; but now, I have become addicted to anything that is likely to be played within a night club.
Freejak, Clavin Harris, Afrojack, David Guetta, Avicii and Teisto are like my heroes of the dance floor, as long as their remixs, songs, or playlists are playing I have a little satisfaction whilst trying my best not to overtly dance my ass off. My version of dancing kind of looks like this -
Freejak, Clavin Harris, Afrojack, David Guetta, Avicii and Teisto are like my heroes of the dance floor, as long as their remixs, songs, or playlists are playing I have a little satisfaction whilst trying my best not to overtly dance my ass off. My version of dancing kind of looks like this -
The notorious Dad Dance!
The side to side!
That's right I can Jerk it!
Music and dancing brings out the best in people, it is an expression of who we are. No matter how bad you look doing it. I like club music because it is something you can express yourself too, it has rhythm, beat, lyrics and the right amount of bass, to shake your ass too.
Would love to see your dance moves, tweet them to me or email me @prowseysweet or prowsey901@gmail.com
Saturday, 14 July 2012
Uganda
Now in this day and age, people are looking for that extra something, a thrill, lending a hand, looking after someone who needs any support they can get. My school do this thing called the Uganda Expedition, where a group of sixth formers, go to Uganda, help charities, Orphanages and schools, build, create, and store water, house people, and teach children. In all honesty, I am one of those people going, but I have to raise £2,500 pounds in order to get there by next summer, I am scared, so far raising money is difficult, I mean what do you say to companies whilst in an Economic downfall. I want to ask, but I feel like I am going to be rude, So what do you guys think, what should I do?
Words
As teenagers, we begin to use words such as, Awkward, Wicked, LOL, ROFLMFAO, with out actually using them in the right context, it started to get me to think, why? It is funny because as a Dyslexic and Dyspraxic I can sometimes come across contradictory of myself, using big words out of context, but I guess strangely it gives me a subtle amount of euphoria.
Yet in addition to those words that are more commonly used to express the situation, we can't help but use the wrong words, swear words to be exact. We use words like fuck, shit, bitch, bastard and the special C-bomb (I don't want you kids getting band from reading this so I though I might call it by its nickname) to express an insult or a friendly gesture. Some words have started to lose their meaning within the teenage community, whether or not it is a good thing I don't know, I enjoy the use of language, it expresses what we want to say, whether or not it is good is another question.
So tell me what you think comment on my section, or tweet me @prowseysweet, or mail me prowsey901@gmail.com
Yet in addition to those words that are more commonly used to express the situation, we can't help but use the wrong words, swear words to be exact. We use words like fuck, shit, bitch, bastard and the special C-bomb (I don't want you kids getting band from reading this so I though I might call it by its nickname) to express an insult or a friendly gesture. Some words have started to lose their meaning within the teenage community, whether or not it is a good thing I don't know, I enjoy the use of language, it expresses what we want to say, whether or not it is good is another question.
So tell me what you think comment on my section, or tweet me @prowseysweet, or mail me prowsey901@gmail.com
Teenage Addictions
Watching programs, eating, sleeping, seems to be a massive part of my life at the moment. I don't know what it is, I don't know why I do it, but there is something I think I find addictive about them.
Lets start with sleeping - Sleeping lets me go into that world of my own perfection, a world away from what society wants, a place where I can actually sing, dance, find love over and over again, a place where I can be whoever, and whatever I want. That place that, takes me away from the reality of this world and puts me into a complete perfection that I can imagine to be real. Sleep is one of my three teenage addictions.
Eating - a pleasure, a torment, a way to understand what I like, and dislike, the things I love, hate, find exciting all are shown from what I love to eat. Lasagna, that is my favourite dish. It reminds me of home, when I am very far away, it brings a subtle feel of hope and adoration of my home and the people that made it. Sounds strange but food is also one of my addictions, it can bring people together, when they share noodles or spaghetti it has that fairy tale romance about it.
Programs, is probably my final normal teenage addiction - Programs, and I mean Televised programs, are my other addiction, from One Tree Hill to Awkward, the way those programs either center around perfection or that scripted reality, there is always something inspiring to see on there. From a couples first kiss, to that dramatic break up you just didn't want to happen. Seems strange that a guy like myself loves these programs so much, but it is with the belief that my life could turn out to be one of those televised programs (Cliched right :P) I just love the way no matter what, the protagonist always has a happy ending and that is how I think life turns out.
Lets start with sleeping - Sleeping lets me go into that world of my own perfection, a world away from what society wants, a place where I can actually sing, dance, find love over and over again, a place where I can be whoever, and whatever I want. That place that, takes me away from the reality of this world and puts me into a complete perfection that I can imagine to be real. Sleep is one of my three teenage addictions.
Eating - a pleasure, a torment, a way to understand what I like, and dislike, the things I love, hate, find exciting all are shown from what I love to eat. Lasagna, that is my favourite dish. It reminds me of home, when I am very far away, it brings a subtle feel of hope and adoration of my home and the people that made it. Sounds strange but food is also one of my addictions, it can bring people together, when they share noodles or spaghetti it has that fairy tale romance about it.
Programs, is probably my final normal teenage addiction - Programs, and I mean Televised programs, are my other addiction, from One Tree Hill to Awkward, the way those programs either center around perfection or that scripted reality, there is always something inspiring to see on there. From a couples first kiss, to that dramatic break up you just didn't want to happen. Seems strange that a guy like myself loves these programs so much, but it is with the belief that my life could turn out to be one of those televised programs (Cliched right :P) I just love the way no matter what, the protagonist always has a happy ending and that is how I think life turns out.
How to express yourself
As a teenager, I think it is easy to forget to express yourself. So here is a challenge to all my followers, if i have any (hahaha) You have to do at least one thing that expresses who you are over the next five months, you can tweet to me about it @prowseysweet or you can email you entries at prowsey901@gmail.com
Look forward to your entries.
#ExpressYourselfProwsey
Look forward to your entries.
#ExpressYourselfProwsey
Being that Guy
What is it about being a teen that makes us do those crazy things for girls? I am a person who used to wear his heart on his sleeve, but it seems strange to constantly want to be loved. Is it not enough for me just to have friends? But then when you do find that girl who you get on well with, and you just seem to constantly laugh about stuff that with anyone else wouldn't be funny, you start to see why 'being that guy' is so important. To them anyway.
The perception of 'being that guy' is what we all want people to believe we are, doesn't really matter whether we are it or not, but if we can get those people around us, our social peers, teachers, family, and friends, then we have already fulfilled our popularity contest... Maybe it isn't that. Maybe it is something a lot simpler, we grow up, looking for that affection, that lust, or love, but it isn't enough just to find it, we try to create it, searching is hard sometimes, and standing out of the crowd to be 'that guy' is harder now more than ever.
Being that guy is only part of what a teenage boy looks to become. I know I still am.
The perception of 'being that guy' is what we all want people to believe we are, doesn't really matter whether we are it or not, but if we can get those people around us, our social peers, teachers, family, and friends, then we have already fulfilled our popularity contest... Maybe it isn't that. Maybe it is something a lot simpler, we grow up, looking for that affection, that lust, or love, but it isn't enough just to find it, we try to create it, searching is hard sometimes, and standing out of the crowd to be 'that guy' is harder now more than ever.
Being that guy is only part of what a teenage boy looks to become. I know I still am.
A Teen's Life
So for many of you who will probably start reading this, firstly thank you.
I have no idea what I am writing about, I suppose the title should be a start. I guess I was inspired by movies, programs, and obviously celebrities, to start one. It seems weird that people would want to read about anyone's life, but I suppose this is kind of like an online biography.
So what is it about a teens life that is so interesting? I guess for me it would be the cliches, you know, the ones that people are like "I just don't think people get me" or the relationship ones of "It's not you. It's me!". In this sense I don't think anyone really knows where they are going, or how they are going to get there, but if it wasn't for the journey then we would all be stuck living that same boring life. For me, I want to become the world's greatest actor, been a dream since i was little, and I work on it desperately hoping that it will happen. However, I enjoy sports, I don't think I could actually give up the social atmosphere that you get when you play a match against another team.
For parents, they have lived through this, yet they seem to have lost that understanding of what it was like. Growing up is a strange thing to everyone, but with choices I guess it becomes clearer to what it is about, Life's answer being 42! I mean come on what the hell does that mean!
Life doesn't suck as a teenager, it is just confusing.
I have no idea what I am writing about, I suppose the title should be a start. I guess I was inspired by movies, programs, and obviously celebrities, to start one. It seems weird that people would want to read about anyone's life, but I suppose this is kind of like an online biography.
So what is it about a teens life that is so interesting? I guess for me it would be the cliches, you know, the ones that people are like "I just don't think people get me" or the relationship ones of "It's not you. It's me!". In this sense I don't think anyone really knows where they are going, or how they are going to get there, but if it wasn't for the journey then we would all be stuck living that same boring life. For me, I want to become the world's greatest actor, been a dream since i was little, and I work on it desperately hoping that it will happen. However, I enjoy sports, I don't think I could actually give up the social atmosphere that you get when you play a match against another team.
For parents, they have lived through this, yet they seem to have lost that understanding of what it was like. Growing up is a strange thing to everyone, but with choices I guess it becomes clearer to what it is about, Life's answer being 42! I mean come on what the hell does that mean!
Life doesn't suck as a teenager, it is just confusing.
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